Faith > Fear

Hebrew 11:1 - Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. (NIV)

Some define fear as False Evidence Appearing Real. However, how should one feel when the evidence presented is as true as equipment and technology allow it to be? 

It's been a while. Specifically, one month and two days since I last wrote a blog. Why? Because fatigue took over in a heavy way along with dizziness and again the receipt of very bad test results. The emotional stress was real. After three months I expected to see positive movement in my TSH especially with it being so low and coming to find out that it only moved by .11 (in the positive) but not by nearly enough to get me to optimal performance. I was shocked because I had better energy, returned to working out, and generally felt better and it only took this blow to knock me off of my feet and cause stress to take over. I cried. I prayed. I read. I cried. Then I went silent.

Honestly the silence was a result of the extreme tiredness I felt along with trying to not be afraid. Yes, it has been 10 years but nonetheless this challenge never fails to get my attention in a new way and make me afraid. I ponder "will my marriage last, how can I work like this, do people notice this weakness, how do I hide?" The false answers to these questions can have one take a serious beating that is so unnecessary. I cried. I prayed. I read. I cried. Then I came to the moment when I decided to look this illness in the eyes once again and say I will beat you. I cried. I waited. I waited some more and felt God's peace take ahold of me and let me know that it is going to be alright. I was reminded that the steps I am taking (i.e., intentionality with food selections) are actually saving me and helping me to get better. I can see it. Clearer skin, puffiness in my face and body leaving, bursts of energy here and there, bloating dwindling.

I then realized I had to let fear go and take hold of "Forsaking All I Trust Him" - FAITH. I remember when I was first diagnosed and how strong my faith, belief, and determination was that I would get better and I was surely facing a different set of circumstances with a dependency on God like never before. This was my wake up call that I have no control over breathing, a heart beat, brain function, etc. and that if I was going to get better I had to shift my thoughts on WHO I was relying on. Faith is the backbone to hope and hope is the influencer to your belief. The three combined give you the power to fight on and overcome. Be mindful that no matter how many transitions you face, you can and will be better.

As I return to the blog, I want to provide encouragement if you face the many challenges of thyroid disease. I want to partner with you along the way so you know that it will be okay. It's for those tough moments when you feel like you just won't make it. It is especially for those times when you think about giving up. Remember it takes time to heal and through healing you will experience "speed bumps" but do not let them slow you down. Allow faith to pull you through and know you have a fellow friend who is willing to go on this journey with you. 

"Because you hold power, illness tired to hold you back. Yet the plan of you being picked on backfired. Instead of you being constrained, you were pushed forward and forced to grow in your soul and spirit. You gained understandings and insights that brought you closer to God." - Anthony William, Medical Medium Thyroid Healing: The Truth behind Hashimoto's, Graves', Insomnia, Hypothyroidism, Thyroid Nodules & Epstein-Barr

No matter how this disease takes form I am going to stay the course because it adds to my story. Let faith guide you!